smiles

how can you not love this smile...

it makes me smile..

it warms my soul...

i see this smile... and

get lost in it....

I know I have talked about

the smile before

maybe I just need

to see him smile again..

maybe the MTV awards

tomorrow will do that for me..

Rob keep smiling... and be happy...

dreamy...

After a long delightful week...

I found this picture...

guessing from one of his what

3 modeling jobs...

whatever... hes adorable

gah... I love his hair

almost as much as i love him....

Those EYES!!!

I know a guy who's tough but sweet
He's so fine, he can't be beat
He's got everything that I desire
Sets the summer sun on fire
I want candy,
I want candy
Go to see him when the sun goes down
Ain't no finer boy in town
You're my guy, just what the doctor ordered
So sweet, you make my mouth water
I want candy,
I want candy
Candy on the beach, there's nothing better
But I like candy when it's wrapped in a sweater
Some day soon I'll make you mine,
Then I'll have candy all the time
I want candy,
I want candy
I want candy,
I want candy...
~by the Candy girls
Okay this is the song that came to mind when I saw this picture
thats it ... nothing intended.. except "ain't no finer boy in town"...

*Tenneil*

a moment...

As I try to gain back my life that I once knew before Mr Pattinson.....

I made cookies.... with my boys... a somewhat easy normal task...right??

WRONG...

As we start.. the meadow is playing in the back ground.. to get things going... yeah know...

Hes apart of everything even the simple tasks...

Anyway... this is the conversation I had with my son...

DS~ "mommy i like that song"

DM~ "Mommy does too"

a few seconds pass...

DS~ "why are you sad mommy"

DM~ " mommy's okay ... just my heart is sad"

DS~ "I love you Mommy" as he pats my back...with flour covered hands..

DM~ I love you too... so very much... finished with Eskimo kisses...

I don't have the heart to really tell him ...

mommy cares so deeply for someone ...

that shes never met...

That his mommy might be mental...

and need some professional help...

*tenneil*

My day stood STILL!!

It this really happening???

I saw what felt like hundreds of

pictures yesterday...

of this glorious man with his shirt off....

playing Edward...

I saw on video picture montage that

made me cry....

Apart of me died yesterday...

I saw the love between

Edward and Bella..

come to life...

I can not wait for this film to be

finished and I get to

have my Edward fix...

that I have been longing for...

PS ... Rob..

you did look pretty hot yourself..

thanks for becoming Edward...

I honestly didn't think that you could do it

at first... i know forgive me

for ever

doubting you...

I never will again...

*tenniel*

HELP ME!!!

Dear Robert,

You have been holding out on me love....

I am utterly speechless....

I think I should look into getting

some help....

Looking at you this way....

actually HURTS....

Ok we need to talk!!!

Okay... this boy needs some help dressing himself.....
I will happily take that job....
You can't even button your shirt right??
Rob hon... you need to look in the mirror before you leave...
Although this is sad... I also find it endearing... Don't change love... EVER!!

Thank you Momma P....

Okay look at the feet back then....HMMMM!!
Suspender loving even back then!!

Running away from anything athletic???

Wow...Momma P this post is for you....

Thank you for this man.....

You've both done so well....

He's talented... beautiful....

smart...funny...

is sexy over the top for you???

the list goes on...

One thing tho...

the hair cut not loving so much...

but everything else...thank you...

You get my flowers yet??

Something bad!!

How can
something so bad....

look so effing HOT!!!

*SIGH*

My Edward!!!

Sorry another post about Edward..

"It makes me... anxious... to be away from you."
Twilight pg 188.

*tenneil*

New Moon!!!!

HOT DAMN!!!

Well, I am very eager to see this movie

now more than ever...

With stills like this...

YOWZA!!

As you know I am longing to see

Edward... this just makes to wait

more painful..

New Moon can not come out soon

enough for me...

Gah Edward...

You are my life now...

*tenneil*

Can you hear me now???

Can you hear me now???

Hey Rob its me...again...

I love making you smile....

Penny for your thoughts right now...

Are you surprised to hear from me???

I know me too.... Cannes is agreeing with you so well...

I couldn't not say something...

Do me a favor... give me a sign that your thinking of me

when you are auctioned off would you scratch your eye brow...

Your such a doll... see you later .. same time... Room 321...Monsieur Handjob!!

*Tenneil*

Edward, Rob, Rob, Edward......

All I really saw was Edward's face; it filled my vision and overwhelmed

my mind. His eyes were butter, burning gold; his face was almost severe with the

depth of emotion. And then, as he met my awed gaze, he broke

into a breathtaking smile of exultation.

Breaking Dawn pg. 48.

This day I cant use my own words...

I am speechless...

broken...

my heart can't take this

today...

*Tenneil*

Tuxedo Rob...

Iam

going to

die NOW

DEAD.....

WHY???

Am I being tortured...

a slow and painful death...

his hands touching her....

his eyes closed...

she can smell him...

Intoxicating....

*SIGH*

The Camera loves Robert....

Its a beautiful day... yes it is...

Gah... that sexy smile...


Penny for your thoughts, love??

THE HAIR!!

HMMMMM!!!

Seriously, even though he looks alittle tired... he can do no wrong... with

the camera.... Are those modeling days paying off Robert??

He looks painfully beautiful in almost every shot I see...

my heart aches...

my soul trembles

my eyes burn ....

my breathing increases...

my hands start to shake...

fantasies fill my mind...

tears at times, fill my eyes...

I get lost in my thoughts

thinking of you....

Unable to live my life that I once knew...

My heart belongs to you Robert..

now and always...

*Tenneil*

Mystery Solved???

Well, Well....I am pretty sure this little ditty is what he's a wearing....

Special thanks to ThirtySomething, a dear friend.... for finding

this goodie...

Now Robert... we want the story!!

New Moon Poster revealed!!!

OK...my thoughts... first, I think I liked the fan one better with

Edward's opened shirt.. that was ...well perfection..

Second, Rob is looking like Rob in this one....not so caulky

white..nice job.... Moving on..the Robs hand bunched up like

that... the amazing hand porn.. GAH... Jacobler is odd looking..no

not because I am not on that team... but like they tried to make

a boy into a man??? just weird.. Bella touching Jacobler makes

me upset... But one thing I know is... I am overly excited to see this movie and Rob/Edward on the big screen again.. This poster fills a small void of needing Edward...

*Tenneil*

Still longing for Edward...

" Long passages of text where Bella describes the beauty of

Edwards face could be summed up in a single shot"

Twilight:the complete illustrated movie companion. pg 20.

Thinking about this statement... oh how not true. Everytime I

look at Rob.. Edward...Edward...Rob... A single shot.

I have so many photos that one shot could describe my beautiful

Edward. Every movement, every smile, every smirk. I love

seeing you on the big screen. I can't wait for New Moon...

I can see what was trying to be said here... but I one shot.

C'mon really the beauty that is Edward IS Rob... He is at many times so painfully beautiful it

hurts my soul... Edward has brought me to Rob and that I am grateful... Edward will always

have a special place in my heart....but it is Robert who owns my heart... for now and always...

*Tenneil*

One of my favorite photos....

You Robert in this photo....

the scruff on your beautiful face

perfection

the way your eyes are seductive

all my bedroom eyes if you will..

perfection

your shoulders look broader giving you

a chiseled look about you

perfection

Your beautiful hands clasps together..

perfection

Your smerk.... sexy as hell

perfection

The angle this photographer got you at

with the jaw porn staring at me

perfection

Your suit...hugging you frame perfectly

perfection..

Your hair... the sex hair look so works for you

perfection...

You in this photo

perfection...

Robert Pattinson style..

*Tenneil*

TOO LONG.....

Okay, its like 188 days till "New Moon" is released....
that's along time...for me..
Counting the days till I see you as Edward...
GAH... I cant wait...
Longing to see your beautiful face on the BIG screen....
I just saw you in "Little Ashes"
but surprisingly that did not fill the void..
"How to be" is my next movie to see you in...
I have heard you were brilliant... of course ...
Now February is the release date for "Remember Me"
Then Filming a movie with Hugh Jackman...
I am excited for all the movies coming out with you in them..
To fill the Robert void in my life... if that is possible...

Imagine this....

"You're doing it again," I muttered.

His eyes opened wide with surprise. "What?"

"Dazzling me," I admitted, trying to concentrate as I looked back at him.

"Oh". He frowned.

"Its not your fault," I sighed " You cant help it."

Twilight pg. 208..

Without even speaking to me Robert this is how I feel... in all you do...

the paps, crazy fans, the press..you name it...

Every time you speak..do something...whatever it is... you do it with grace...

I applaud you...

*Tenneil*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Whistling you a special song

on your special day...

Hope you day is full of all

the special things you enjoy..

You deserve to enjoy it the

way you would like to...

Happy Birthday Robert...

*Tenneil*

your eyes...

Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I come here to talk
I hope you understand
That green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could, anybody, deny you
I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, now I've met you
And honey you should know, that I could never go on without you
Green eyes
Honey you are the sea
Upon which I float
And I came here to talk
I think you should know
That green eyes, you're the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who, tried to deny you must be out of their mind
Cause I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, since I met you
Honey you should know, that I could never go on without you
Green eyes
Green eyes
Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand

Coldplay~ Green Eyes

A dear friend mentioned this song... today
and I thought of you right away..
why??? you eyes are they green sometimes blue??
I know not every lyric here fits... but so many that do...

With love Robert.....

*Tenneil*

Little Ashes...

Well I drove 3 hours to see you Robert...

I didn't get back till 5 am and up at 730...

I was a mess yesterday....

But I am glad I did it... and would do it all over again...

But did I love you in this movie...no

You were brilliant for what you had to work with..

it wasn't you... the movie just didn't flow smoothly

enough for me...but that's not your fault...

you are beyond your years sir Robert...

I loved younger Dali...

Way to go Robert...

my many faces....

you have so many looks...

and I love all of them....

it makes me smile.....

be safe....

Thinking of you....

BE SAFE...

1 day till

Little Ashes...

opens

I will see you...

Thinking??

I've been thinking...

about you...

(i know big surprise)

What happens when the

Twilight films are done??

Are you going to go away??

Are you going to marry Nina??

Are you going to run from

from this life you

have now??

Are you going to make

movies ??

When you leave

are you going to

start making

your beautiful music??

Write a book??

Lose yourself in everyday life??

I hope that

whatever you do Robert....

it makes you happy..

You could come and find me...

Lets talk... have a drink..

do a book club??

Be Safe ...

Sunshine.....

You Are My Sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away
The other nite, dear,

As I lay sleeping

I dreamed I held you in my arms.

When I awoke, dear,

I was mistaken

And I hung my head and cried.
You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.
I'll always love you

And make you happy

If you will only say the same

But if you leave me

To love another

You'll regret it all some day;
You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.
You told me once, dear

You really loved me

And no one else could come between

But now you've left me

And love another

You have shattered all my dreams;
You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me

skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

I woke up this morning with this song in my head.... why not sure

But I never realized how many verses it had...

WOW how do some of them really fit... perfectly....and some that dont... but I wish...

Tenneil

Things not to do....

Here's a list I have been thinking about.... the do's and don'ts with Mr Pattinson...
when did I become an expert ...I don't know... call it commonsense that alot of "fans" have forgotten... but whatever....

Don't... call him Edward....
Do... call him Monsieur Handjob...

Don't.... tell him your his biggest fan...
Do... tell him you love what he "creates"

Don't...whip out you Twilight book.. for him to sign... i mean wtf why are you carrying that with you... seriously....
Do...ask him what he thought about "John Buck" was he losing his mind?? ...or was it a dream???

Don't.... ask him to hold you like Bella from the poster... you know the answer to that one...
Do....daydream about him holding you like that...LOL

Don't...tell him that you've seem the Rob Crotch video like 20x
Do... tell you love his ensemble of the day.. while laughing inside cause you know you saw the same outfit like 2 days ago on TMZ... sighing the whole time thinking about the buttonflies...

Don't... tell him you have your own blog about him, spend countless hours on Robsessed... and read countless stories about him or his character Edward..
Do... ask him if he enjoyed I Love LA??? see if he smiles???

well that's it for now....

whatever will be, will be.....

Yeah the true hurts

but so do lies...

okay speculation out there

that KStew and Rob

"making out"

WHATEVER

NO pictures of this tho??

People the lies

NEED to STOP...

I am sad and hurt

by all of this

nonsense

Really

Rob is a nice person

doing something

he has a passion for

He didn't ask for the lies

and the turmoil of

this all....

I love Rob and this just fucking hurts...

*tenneil*